Confusion

What do I want to
Do with my life?

To explore and explode
a thousand thoughts
and color-filled words
that spill out and scramble
for the page … Confusion!

It’s all I want, and
then the pictures begin
scrolling, rolling on the
insides of my eyelids
and I am dazzled
and amazed and fully
invigorated by those
visions as well;

Then I wonder about focus
and how I could possibly
slice the creative pie
I’ve been eyeing all my
life, drooling until I die
over-stuffed, never
sated.

slice of home ~ bj

23 thoughts on “Confusion

  1. Creative people can never be sated Bela…each word seems to float as we swim around for new ones, each horizon seems too low and every new creation mocks at our style, demanding depth! Floundering in the sea of ideas and dreams, we hope for a new light with each creation. Keep the creative juices flowing dear friend. πŸ™‚

  2. There are times, and I have to admit it’s often after having a pot edible that my mind rushes with creative energy and it becomes a struggle to slow down my thoughts before another one has taken it’s place. That’s what this poem reminded me, the feeling of being overrun with creativity, but not being able to get it out fast enough or perhaps in a medium you have any competence at. For instance I can see sometimes amazing sculptures in my head, but I don’t know if I have the ability or patience to make them. lol Writing is about the best I have when it comes to creative expression. I try to make the best of it. πŸ™‚

    1. You know, I know what you mean – though I’m usually just naturally high enough to delve into those creative waters. And your perception of having so much flowing that you can hardly slow down to express is exactly what I’m talking about here. The funny thing is, I wrote the first draft of this poem almost 20 years ago, and it’s the same today!

      Don’t ever sell yourself short on your writing ,Swarn. Aloha.

  3. A clever littering of alliteration in the final stanza! I’ve just asked you (over at Esme’s) whether you’re well out of harm’s way there, dear Bela, so will await a reply there, or here, but stay safe β€” we need you. H ❀

    1. Quite all right, thank you. Coincidentally I was at the caldera Halema’uma’u the night before the eruption though! Had business in Hilo, 2-1/2 hrs from home, so made plans for an overnight to avoid the crowds in the park, another 40 min from home, so we are well out of harm’s way, save for earthquakes, to be expected. Will write more in a post with photos. Mahalo for your concern. ❀️

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