We are all moving on to the next level,
just as he did after coming through
walls, us sitting at our kitchen table,
pleading eyes confused, conflicted;

Nobody spoke of suicide in that place,
yet there he was, and I had to ask
another neighbor if she knew
what had happened;

I remember passing by a lone figure
walking a small white dog,
and sometimes I thought it a woman,
sometimes a man; ahh, this being
was mahu, a two spirited one,
yin and yang that might have merged
into a lovely ebony and ivory symbol,
while instead, his Japanese parents felt
only shame, and so freedom
was sought by moving to a large
east coast city where those of like
kind could seek a life free from
judgments that bound them in ties
far too snug to house the beauty
of their souls;

Distressed parents conspired
somehow to bring their son back,
yet back to what? A life in this
tiny town with its own ideas
of how firstborn sons should act?
Instead in despair, they found
their son hanging limp
from a rope
in the garage,

When his spirit came to us,
it was with a desire to find
a way to transition between
this world and the next, and so
we envisioned a beautiful
beanstalk, glistening ivy green
with heart-shaped leaves,
its sinuous vines a strong rope
without obligation of gravity,
and it grew and branched out,
carrying this dear one
into a magical realm
where harmony might prevail,
higher, further from the suffering
of simply living with yearnings
his broken family could never

Tahitian Gardenia ~ bj

25 thoughts on “Beanstalk

  1. Bela:

    You have truly outdone yourself this time. And yes, that is saying a lot for your overall body of work is truly splendid.

    This is an extremely powerful work.

    Tubularsock knows of this degree of shock and sadness and can only say how powerfully you have expressed it and how positively it is presented.

    Truly an honor to read.


    PS …… no jokes this time Tubularsock never goes up against the magical realm.

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    1. Thanks so much, sweetie. High praise indeed, for which I am grateful. It was sad too, as Hawaiians totally respect the two spirited one. But this being was not born to Hawaiians, unfortunately. Some things are impossible to forget. πŸ’“

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    1. You know, Kerfe, it seems it did. What else to do but bless them all. Parents with their conditioned behavior included. Let’s hope this event opened their eyes to some nobler truths. Hard all the way around. πŸ™β€οΈ

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    1. Thank you, Gail. πŸ™Since, in my experience, there seem to be an awful lot of those pairings, i am left to assume there are soul contracts involved. Conjecture yes, but suppose this soul agreed to awaken his parents from lifetimes of slumber and ignorance through sacrificing his life in this way … nobody remembers these things of course, but it’s possible. I do have my own personal experience to strongly suspect it. ❀️

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  2. Very sad yet powerful poem and writing, Bela. So much anguish and sadness all round, from the child who never was really happy being controlled at home, and the parents who always wanted more from the child, and in the end suffer in silence for a long time to come. I like your thoughts to Gail. As sad as the situation is, things happen for a reason and the outcome is there for us to reflect on and hopefully take away something from.

    Hope all is well with you πŸ’•

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    1. Thanks, Mabel. I always hold a vision that humans open their minds and hearts to live and let live. I expect there would be a lot less violence in the world if we could simply accept we are all different and choose to learn from that instead of condemning.

      We are continuing to figure things out in our new location, exploring the surrounding forest roads and meeting more people in the surrounding communities, some whose families have lived here for hundreds of years! Very cool. Old Spanish lineages, mostly. Some Native American.

      Sending you love and good wishes always! πŸ’“


      1. I so agree with you Bela. If we can all accept our differences, respect and learn from each other, the world would be a more peaceful place. It will take time.

        Lovely to hear you are settling in your new location. All the best with that. Take care and good wishes to you too ❀

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    1. Agreed, Renee. So tragic, expecting anyone to fit in a box. I explored this from a different angle again today with my post, Ink Not Yet Dry.

      Hoping all is well with you, dear one. ❀️

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